Sunday, 28 February 2010
I am a creature of habit.
- laundry (check)
- cat's litterbox (check)
- trash out (check)
- spend lots of time on the net (check)
- lunch boxes for the beginning of the week (check)
- water plants (gotta remember before I go to bed)
- bake muffins (check!)
PS: The muffins didn't crash this time!
Saturday, 27 February 2010
Friday, 26 February 2010
There are alot of advantages to living alone, to not answering to anyone but myself. I don't have to adjust to anyone in any matter: I sleep when I want to, I listen to what music I want to when I want to (even when I sleep), I can have silence when I want to. I have the freedom to eat or not as it suits me, and there's noone to complain that I am just eating bread and cheese or alittle cereal and not bothering cooking. The things I leave strewn around me bother noone but myself and I can tidy them up when they annoy me. I get to sleep alone every night, I get to sleep diagonally and using all the bed surface and my twisting and turning does not annoy anyone, I don't steal duvets or get duvets stolen or kick anyone or get kicked or pushed out of bed. There is freedom to not go out unless I want to, to simply stay in, to enjoy being a bit of a hermit, getting all my social input online in the form of text. Freedom to work as much as I like and can/have energy for.
And finally there is security. If I don't deal with people they cannot hurt me. I am safe against heartbreak, hurt, raised voices, angry silences, there is no fear of lifted hands, cowering in a corner. This is my domain and as there is only me here, I feel completely safe in all my rooms.
But it is not just bliss. There are things that hurt. Alone can be very lonely. Having to deal with anything the world chucks at me on my own, with my own resources, not having anyone to ask for help or just support in any decision or solution or action or problem is tough, although I know I grow stronger every time I manage. Talking to myself and the cat just to hear voices. Always sleeping alone, never any warmth or someone to cuddle close to at night. The ache that seems to sit somewhere in my spine for physical contact. Eating goes to hell because noone see that you don't eat properly, can't bother to cook just for one person, who cares anyway, I'll be dead soon. Never going out because of the lack of someone to do things with.
Thursday, 25 February 2010
Monday, 22 February 2010
Yep. I have kept my new year promise and have been rather faithfully writing one page in the notebook daily since newyear. I think maybe I've missed seven days altogether so far which all in all isn't that bad in a fiftythree day stretch. It is not really a diary, I just write what is on my mind. It is for me, and for my eyes, so I can write anything. It is like speaking to myself. Strange business. But probably not bad for me in any way.
Saturday, 20 February 2010
Deliana förbereder sig för shoppingsafari i Barkarby (translation: is preparing for a shopping safari to Barkarby)
Silme: See you soon!
Thursday, 18 February 2010
Tuesday, 16 February 2010
Sunday, 14 February 2010
Saturday, 13 February 2010
Friday, 12 February 2010
Thursday, 11 February 2010
I need a replacement.
I prefer iAudio (among other things because I have a bunch of .ogg files I can't be bothered to encode to something most players will accept, and because the sound is superior!). I want it to be a small player, NOT something the size of a mobile phone. I have a mobile phone which plays music, its too lumpy and big and annoys me (and it isn't, really, but I prefer the player the size of a memory stick). I don't want a shuffle player, I -like- listening to whole albums, I also like to check what I am listening to since I frequently get new music to bring with me on my commute.
There are iAudios out there but the ones I want (physical size related) are just old enough that I can't find anywhere to buy them. I found one on amazon but they won't send it to Sweden.
HELP ME! Find me a nice small iAudio that will be sent here, or that can be sent via someone nice that will forward it to me!
Being without music on my commute would suck SO much. Music is almost as important as breathing!
Wednesday, 10 February 2010
Tuesday, 9 February 2010
Last time I was at the dentist I disliked the woman immensely and I thus tried to get an appointment with a different one this time. The woman on the phone stonewalled me however and I found myself going to the same. Oh well. “No matter”, I thought. “It is going to cost a fortune anyway, I will just have to tell her to pick the most important items and ignore the rest!”
Well, today I had my appointment and I found myself thinking she is quite a nice lady.
Why this change of mind? Rather simple – she told me there was nothing wrong with my teeth whatsoever except for a sharp edge which she polished smooth for me (no pain!), and that she will see me again for a checkup in a year. All at half the cost of what I expected the appointment to cost!
Yes, a nice lady indeed.
Monday, 8 February 2010
2) Miniature chainmail bracelet with glass beads.
3) A magnet from a Cauldron Christmas card sendout - 2007 I believe. I made alot of snowman Achmeds and tiny Rhaps'es.
4) Work doodles became magnets - there's more of them at work, including a dragon and a snail.
5) Another magnet, with cinnamon and aniseed.
6-8) Linus wanted to be in the picture too when I initially tried taking a picture of one of the bookmarks. If it wasn't a paw, or four, it was his butt.