Context

Friday I got to thinking about context.

Setting 1: Crowd of acquaintances, bar, noiselevel: Loud but one can talk with raised voices in small groups. 
I frequently find myself the Listener, only sometimes trying to awkwardly add something in a self-conscious attempt to participate.

Setting 2: Small office at work, three union board colleagues are sitting on chairs. 
I am pacing the three possible steps back and forth, waving my arms around, pulling at my hair, talking so fast I stumble, interrupting myself, frustrated that I can't just export all the things I want them to, need them to, know and give it to them, nervous energy making me vibrate.

Both are undoubtedly me, and neither is better than the other, both are Not-Me too - a kind of warped me, negative energy me, un-zen me, off balance. But in one I am highly communicative, the former I am withdrawn, mostly thinking, either not finding words or dismissing my thoughts as unsuitable.

Absence

Two months of fever resulted in (finally) an antibiotics cure and I got rid of the fever. I am still somewhat congested however, and my throat is still sore, since I have a virus infection that took over when the pneumoniac stuff went away. My energy levels are exceedingly low and I am not doing stuff - like posting here. Or going out much. Mostly just working (I had almost a month's worth of absence from work to catch up on, because nobody does my job if I am not here) and trying to sleep and do nice things that I want to do, rather than push myself beyond my energy levels.

I've bought extra legs for my sofa so I can unhook the parts from eachother and use them separately, and I bought a two dimensional xmas tree, so I'll have to get back to y'all with some info about that :D Oh and I am knitting again, so there are a few WIPs turned FOs to be photoed too.

Destash

I am clearing out stuff I don't use, selling or giving away. Both stuff I have made and other items.

Here's a few items on their way out:

Morning cat and Evening Ravens

Misty September Morning

After a bit of an indian summer fall suddenly arrived. 

Yarny stuff - September

I knit some.

The cowl has taken me four months...

Tuesday Decadence

APA, IPA/Stout, pecan pie+icecream, icecream+cloudberries. There was more beer and some food that I was too busy eating to be the cool kid and photo too.

Rust and Spiderwebs

Sunset at sea

Then I ran out of battery on both my camera and my phone. It was pretty though.

Lighthouse

Helsinki - last port of call on my Baltic Tour of '14.

Home sweet home - hanging out with my beloved isosisko and her darling husband. 

Trip home

Felt weird to see the familiar boats from this angle. I'm on an enemy ship! 

Taste of childhood. I'm not so in love with it anymore.

Tallinn: Lennusadam

Silme and Patrik goes on holiday by boat across the Baltic.
Aren't we cute?

Red velvet in a submarine.

Tallinn Day 2

The brilliantly hot summer weather from Stockholm was present in Estonia too, but I never leave home (well, rarely) without a scarf and a hat.

Or leave the hotel room, as that may be.

I'll make a separate post with the Seaplane harbour photos...