Monday, 31 March 2014

Run, run!

I signed up for my first 5k. I won't feel guilty about walking it, fast, but I'd like to run. Means I have two months to get back in shape after the winter, at the moment running 100m is going to have me winded ;)

Will set a personal time target after I time myself on the distance right now, something to work for.

Friday, 21 March 2014

B(ack)log: Sheep

Found these in a yarn shop when walking around with a friend. Cute, aren't they?

B(ack)log: Miniature!

I got to paint  a miniature with an old friend last spring. There hasn't been time to go back but it was fun!

Look look what I made:

B(ack)log! Fruit

My summer commute is far nicer than it is right now - at the moment it is muddy and grey and dreary.

Thursday, 20 March 2014

Now winter dances here

Not spring yet! What is the weather like where you are? 


This winter has mostly consisted of a bunch of snow getting dumped on us on a random weeknight, and then melting the day after. I only want one thing if it is going to snow: Enough to go sledding, and letting it stay around long enough to actually plan a sledding outing with a friend. So, let's say, last night's snow - if it could stay around until after the weekend? That would be great.

But it is already melting.

Happy spring equinox, by the way!

Tuesday, 18 March 2014

Alone vs Lonely

"The lonelier [people] get, the less adept they become at navigating social currents. Loneliness grows around them, like mould or fur, a prophylactic that inhibits contact, no matter how badly contact is desired. Loneliness is accretive, extending and perpetuating itself." (From here)

Loneliness is a strange creature. It is hunger, it is shame, it is not something to be admitted to. Loneliness is stress, it makes you spin like a top, scared to interact with people, lest they push you away, makes you see things, hear things, gives you ideas ideas ideas bouncing around your skull. Loneliness is danger, you can die in the jungle, eaten by some wild animal, by the monsters under your bed.

Loneliness keeps you from sleeping well, and eventually the sleep deprivation adds to the stress, and left is a ball of hyper tension.

How can one be lonely in the midst of friends, coworkers, city life? How can one get out of that state?

I don't think I would call myself lonely. I am alone a lot of the time, but I don't feel lonely. Yet I am suffering the symptoms of loneliness, and I have for a long time been aware that the cure for my sleep issues is to find someone I can relax around to sleep next to, cuddle up to, a few nights a month. Convincing my reptile brain that no, I am not lonely, I have people around me. Oxytocin relieving the stress hormones - maybe balancing them out, or maybe stopping the production, I don't know which. But it is highly functional as stress relief, steadies me, makes me more coherent, useful, productive in a stable way

I still wouldn't say I feel lonely most of the time, but I am certainly exhibiting signs of it. Maybe I just have issues identifying my own feelings? Yet I am so happy to be alone, my starfish sleeping position, my autonomy and freedom.

Sometimes it is time

But not today.

Monday, 17 March 2014


I have, today, 124 untried nail polishes in the house. I own a bunch of others, but they haven't gotten here yet, being somewhere in the US still.

Sunday, 16 March 2014

Tea with friends

I miss ranch dressing something terrible and am way too lazy to make my own from scratch, mixing spices (and buying things I'll barely use in bulk and then I'll have to throw it away eventually because it got old after some years).

So a lovely internet friend sent me two satchets of mix, and included a handful of assorted teabags in the parcel.

Tonight I will have rooibos with orange and cinnamon thanks to the Internet. I love my computer, my friends live in it!

Thursday, 13 March 2014

Up down right left...

Whether I have my hair up or down makes me look rather different now, especially when wearing a hat. I find it endlessly entertaining to try to recognize myself in the mirror - I don't, half the time.

This morning I woke up with rather epic bedhead, sadly didn't occur to sleepy me to take a photo, but I am wearing my hair to the wrong side today. Hanging on the left side of my face instead of the normal right side.

Here is an illustration of the different looks (with various hats):

Trees come down!

Enjoy :)

Tuesday, 11 March 2014

It's Tuesday!

I wanted to find the clip from the dvd (APBL2000 not the harmonizer tour despite the picture above, I think? Tell me if I am wrong.) where they talk about how they were recommended to not go to Tel-aviv, but I am too lazy and sleepy to look.
I dreamt I had bought a unicycle and was learning to ride it.


People are asking: Is King having trouble or did his GPS break down? He has been standing still (according to the tracker) outside of Safety for quite a while, meanwhile Aliy is fast catching up. In support of her actual catching up is that he hasn't been recorded in to Safety. This is getting exciting! The weather is reported to be rather nasty with a low blizzard. It'll be exciting to watch the finish-line today!

Edit: (re edited the edit)
Read this for more updates. The weather is horrendous.

Monday, 10 March 2014

Quick opinion before the final stretch

In a few hours King and then Zirkle leaves White Mountain after their mandatory 8h rest. Aliy couldn't match King's speed and lost an hour to him on the way there, and this late an hour could be a big thing. Will the rest be enough ot get her team up to speeds where she can catch up to and beat King to Nome?

I sure as hell am cheering for Aliy, it's about time (so many #2), but at this point I wouldn't put money on it. King's team is running strong and is getting the same rest.

Here, have a mushing video: Aliy Zirkle going down Dalzell Gorge in '12, which was a much much snowier year than the terrible year this has been. Here is a clip showing this year's conditions in the same place.

Oh, come on Aliy. Run, dogs, run!

Sunday, 9 March 2014

Banging one's head

This lamp. This, this THING.

It is lovely. I love it. It is a work of beauty. The actual lamp part is outside the camera angle, this was an old photo I found. It can be raised or lowered and is weighted by the metal ball the tassels were hanging from (no tassels for the past 1,5 years).

It is heavy. Both the ball, and the lamp it is balancing.

And today I had knocked my head on it once too many and it came down. I lost my steam before I put it up in the kitchen instead (taking down that lamp and putting it in a box), but it might happen another day. In the livingroom I have a naked bulb hanging close to the ceiling now. It is a colour-changing one though, something I picked up for fun a year or two back.

At least my window will be easy to spot?

Tuesday, 4 March 2014


Alice in her party dress! Once there was a beautiful tarantula named Alice, for this song, that lived with me. Mother did not approve of that purchase.

Saturday, 1 March 2014

It's that time of year again!

In about fourty minutes it starts. The 42nd Iditarod.

I am excited as usual - been watching the available pre-race footage for some hours, and crying a bit and laughing a bit.

"The Norwegians are coming!"

Watch the ceremonial start here, in 40 minutes (8pm CET).