Friday, 23 December 2011


Refresher

As the year draws to a close I have got some nasty bug that keeps me with 2c of fever even after taking medicines that should lower the fever. I spend my lucid moments online, among other things reviewing my blog.

Here is something which I think should be said again:
Solitude

Tuesday, 20 December 2011

Defining paradoxes

I posted this on G+ earlier, but decided to add it here too. 

I am going to go out on a limb here..

I have for several years been advocating against defining people, categorising them - it mostly appears when related to sexuality but far from absent in other situations. You have no idea how frustrated people get when they can't figure out the gender or age of someone - it is both amusing and sad to watch. I still think dispensing with this strange need to categorise is good.

But. I have realised that having definitions, having them written down somewhere, something that (most) people agree on, makes a helluva good reference point when you need to explain something. You (or I) don't have to invent the wheel all over again. Use the encyclopedia, the great vocabulary that already exists.

However: A lot of terms and definitions are contested.

Still: If you find some you agree with and that you feel suit your purpose of enlightenment... use them. If nothing else, you might feel less lonely realising someone else thought something along the same lines as you do now, some time.

Edit that was not included in the original post:
A lot of definitions are very binary; black or white. This is one reason to be careful. Remember the grey scale - and add a dash of colour while you are at it. 


Edit#2: I meant that I found using existing terms (that I didn't know about because I have been avoiding finding out) useful in explaining myself and what goes on in my own head. 

Friday, 9 December 2011

Snowless

My days nowadays mostly consists of work. New for this year is that during the autumn I was promoted to a manager position, for good and bad.
I also seem to have contracted some cousin to the dreaded winter depression: I am too happy to be called depressed, but I have the other symptoms I associate with depression from personal experience. I pretty much only feel awake when the sun is shining.

In total that means I am struggling to keep my head above the water at work, and actually prove that the decision to give me a new position was a good one. By nature I feel I am never good enough, so it means I am not enjoying my work as much as I used to. Hopefully that feeling will pass as I get a better grip of the new situation.

I did manage to find energy to make a bunch of christmas cards and ship them out before the post's international deadline. If you think you are on the shortened list this year, keep checking your mail box next week or so.

I am also experimenting with a new look for this place, if you want to be on the panel of advisors give me a shout. I might even let you.

I have two things to look forward to that might give me more energy than they take:

before Xmas I am going to Helsinki for a few days with mother, staying in a hotel (for the first time over there) but also catching up with some friends, not just being tourists. Also, buying tea at The Ounce is on my list of must-dos. Back in time for the holidays (I am "as usual" celebrating alone in sthlm).

In February I am going stateside for a couple of weeks, route is NC-FL-TX. Going to be plenty of fun, meeting cousins but also catching up with some friends. Really looking forwards to that trip - maybe too much, I am pretty much ready to leave, suitcase in the hallway and all. ;-)

I hope to finish the refurnishing of my flat before that trip however, I should start getting furniture deliveries next week. The much longed for new sofa and armchair/recliner, most importantly, but also a new coffee table. I did finally find a kitchen/dining table I liked, it was hideously expensive but I cashed out on an impulse, since I had found nothing else I liked that was in the right size. This one is made to measure, just for me. It will feel good to get rid of the cheapest-that-ikea-could-offer panic buys from when I moved in here, as well as some comfortable but somewhat ugly-coloured secondhand stuff. So, the end of my 6 month project of researching furniture and deciding what I want is actually coming to an end.

That doesn't mean I am out of projects: My bedroom is still a mashup of secondhand, bad choices, and mismatched items. Also I need to have a good look at the computer setup here, at least setting up a proper home network for the many computers and the network printer. I should also get some sort of network storage/backup storage, as well as investing in new hardware and retiring the old boxes sitting under my desk.

And that is not counting all the craft projects I have in mind.