Monday, 10 May 2010

Overload!

Mymlan writes so well about overload. In Swedish but go read!

That is such an apt description of what it is like to live.

Of course there are differences, we are different people. But the main is the same. I use music in earphones just for the reasons she avoids it: It shuts out the world, the context, I don't know what is going on. In a passive situation like sitting on the bus or a train that suits me well.

I remember things. Random things that pop up when getting reminders like this. I never thought I was the only one feeling like this but it is still good to get a reminder that I am not alone, not unique. I don't feel sorry for myself (most of the time), but I am.. challenged by living my life. So are others however!

I especially remember one situation, the beginning of learning to making excuses instead of telling the truth.
I was at work, it was afternoon, friday. My then coworker asked if I wanted to tag along getting a burger or something after work. My mind froze: I had a Plan, going home to clean the kitchen. It was needed. If I went to do something else on the way home that wouldn't happen. I opened my mouth and said "No, I am going to clean my kitchen!". The other coworkers started laughing at what they perceived as a blunt dismissal of the poor fellow. My mind froze again, and I pulled into myself, hiding. After that I started learning to make vague excuses and perhaps a counter offer of a better time. The situation above is however one that I keep reviewing and that pops up in my head a few times a year.

And I presume the context of the above memory won't make much sense if you were unable to read the Swedish text I linked to.

9 comments:

  1. Don't make plans.
    Just take it as it comes >:)

    Cold As Heaven

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  2. If I do that nothing will ever be finished. I _do_ (like in Mymlan's example) leave the trash bag in the middle of the kitchen floor because I get distracted, unless I keep thinking about it and planning my next step with it. It takes me about 10 seconds to forget what I am about to do from I start doing it unless I keep a complete focus on that single thing, cannot let myself think more than a few steps ahead because then I will inevitably even skip the first steps and move to those. Plans are essential.

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  3. (Realised after trying to counterstalk you for ten minutes that I should probably reply instead of going through visitor logs. We seem to have common acquaintances to judge from your link list though, and that made me more curious than normal!)

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  4. That's how I happened to come accross your blog >:)

    Cold As Heaven

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  5. Well, backtracking where people come from are fun. Even people that work for my childhood enemy! >:]

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  6. Not sure if it's BigOil or Satan you're referring to; for some they are basically the same. Whatever, I'm not working when I'm blogging. I have found that you can find nice people in the most nasty places ... >:)

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  7. For some, but I would think that for those with that view the latter is perceived as a negative thing. Or?

    Aaaand I dunno. I know alot of nasty places. With nasty people to match. Scary people. Stupidity scares me and stupidity is fashionable, thus nasty places are aplenty. And while there may be nice people there, I am not going to go looking for them _there_, too few and far between.

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  8. Life is full of surprises ... I'm mostly harmless >:)

    Best wishes,
    Cold As Heaven

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  9. That's what they all say!

    Anyhow, yea, most people are. Thanks for sticking your head out and commenting, it is much appreciated!

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Be nice!